Lets try a skinny brain on today

While it may sound every bit weird, I thought that I would try on a skinny brain today.  Lets see if I remember how to feel skinny again?  I can feel the weight dripping off, while not literally, I am feeling that there is a sense of at least changing a mind set that has been programmed to act fat and ultimately be fat.  When I re-read my last post, I fully felt the impression that I was over exposing myself there.  Then felt no stuff it, if it as to be then it has to be.  Whats the point in trying out a skinny brain, without trying out a skinny body.  While my writings are more to do with the thinking process of me as a fat person, there are those who are actively looking at the food and exercise aspect.  Which Ive found is well and good, but what about the thought processes of the fat person.  Only a fat person knows how a fat person feels right?  Well here it is and here I am, the fat person versing the non fat people who tell fat people what they are thinking and then what to think.  I dont go to the corner dairy to get advice on fixing the plumbing in my house, unless of course they are a plumber who owns a corner dairy.  But the point is, I refuse to listen to a skinny person tell me what my thinking processes relating to being fat means.  I will however seek the advice from that skinny person in getting skinny and keeping it that way.  I mean a healthy skinny, not the crap statistics of BMI's and charts that tell me where I fit in on the graph and how that graph is indicative of what Im meant to weigh.  Has the chart factored in the weight of muscle, which as we know weighs more than fat.  

I would like to think that my deciding factors are the way Im looking at myself in the mirror and while its fair to say that the mirror lies, Im talking about the bone structures that become visible or the amount of fat that is in your hand and how that measures progress.  I dont think the way your own hand pinches those parts of your fat changes, unless of course you are losing or gaining.  Since the beginning of my journey, I am noticing structural changes to my shoulders and neck.  I take photos often of my profiles and will use these to measure the changes.  I dont have scales to weigh myself and in all honesty, I dont think there are scales that will tolerate the weight.  So unless Im making daily gym trips or visits to the doctors, Its my way of measurement.  Clothes are the other aspect, if they fit in sme places or not.  Buttons on clothes that have no give will also be a good measurement tool.  Im purely taking the proven and suggested methods and implementing them as best I can for myself.  Lets hope that there is a success at the end of it.

My OH brought up a very interesting concept about Lap Banding Surgery.  We watched Friday's today tonight about parents who opted for the surgery as their kids were being bullied.  He then asked me if I would have the operation.  While it is a costly option here I refused almost as soon as he asked me.  Feeling that he thinks Im at that extreme that I need it, feeling offended that he even asked.  While it means the advantage of regaining a smaller stomach size internally, there is still the underlying pyschological factors and this comes with food, exercise and maintaining that.  I do wonder though, at what point would I feel pushed into making the decision.  Food for thought